Usually, I am extremely resistant to change, but for some reason I am really open to it right now.
I watch the ripples change their size
But never leave the stream
Of warm impermanence
So the days float through my eyes
But still the days seem the same
And these children that you spit on
As they try to change their worlds
Are immune to your consultations
They’re quite aware of what they’re going through
-David Bowie, Changes
I went ahead and bought http://www.unknownmami.com/ so that I could get rid of the blogspot in my url. I know! It’s like I expect to be doing this blogging thing for awhile.
Then I went and got myself a new email email@example.com. I had resisted it for the longest time because my regular email is on yahoo and I don’t want to change and who needs to check so many emails, but guess what? I can have all the emails forwarded to yahoo and I can even reply with the gmail address from yahoo. Who knew?
I went to the “temp” job I’ve been going to where I’m allowed to bring Put Pie and I was told that I might be able to work there for a whole year. Apparently, there is a program funded by the City of San Francisco specifically geared to mom’s returning to work. My job can’t afford to hire me for a year, but if I qualify for the program the city will pay for it! Wish me luck. (Proof again that the Universe is abundant. I never fail to be amazed at the things that find me.)
Okay, I am giving myself a challenge. From now until October 30th I am going to exercise EVERY.SINGLE.DAY! Yup that’s right. Now don’t get all worried. I’m talking about 20 minutes a day. Not much, but more than I currently manage. How am I making myself accountable, you ask? Good question! Well, I’m using you for one, I’ll keep you posted every Friday. Big deal, you say. Oh ye of little faith, there is more. For everyday that I do not exercise, I will be charging myself five dollars and at the end of my challenge if I have paid for not exercising I will use the money to finance a micro-loan to an entrepreneur through Kiva. (If you haven’t heard of Kiva, please check them out. You can do a lot of good with as little as $25 and it’s not a donation, it’s a loan so you can loan it to someone else when it gets paid back.)
I came to a realization this week that I spend far too much time in front of the computer. My beautiful daughter has taken to screeching when she sees me go for the laptop. I am ashamed and I realize that I need to limit myself. I have decided that her time is her time and I shouldn’t continually try to sneak “my time” into her time. I enjoy my online life and do not want to stop, but I will either have to get up early or wait until she has gone to sleep. I really do feel bad that she has had to find a way to tell me without words how much she hates it when Mami’s face is pointed at the computer. Today, I really made an effort (it’s hard, it’s an addiction) and it really paid off. It was even easier to put her to bed. She is the most beautiful thing in my life and deserves the best of me; I intend on giving it to her.
Have a beautiful weekend!