Auditon

I don’t blog much about my life as an actor because lately there hasn’t been much to blog about. I am carrying a bunch of extra weight and I don’t really like going on auditions at this weight. It’s one thing to feel heavy around “regular” people, but actors can be really skinny and there are already so many reasons to be insecure that I really don’t need to be the “biggest” person in the room.

In the last few days, I’ve gotten two auditions and as much as I wanted to turn them down I just couldn’t justify giving in to my insecurities. They are both for SAG national commercials and since my family is not doing well financially it would really make a world of difference if I booked that kind of a gig. So I put my doubts aside, slathered on some make-up, and put on whatever fit.

It turns out I got a check availability for one of them! For those of you who don’t act that means that I’m on the short list for booking the commercial. It’s not mine, but it means I’m a finalist. Even if I don’t get it, it’s good for my ego right now. But if I do get it, it’s really good for my family.

I really believe in the power of positive thought. If you are reading this, could you kindly take a moment and wish me luck? Could you ask the universe to bless me with this opportunity? I would truly appreciate it.

Thank you!

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Went to my second audition since giving birth, today. I almost turned it down because I feel self-conscious about the weight gain, but who am I to deny myself opportunities?

I’m so glad I went. I love acting and everything associated with it. Lots of actors are very particular and prefer theater over on-camera, or prefer “real” acting over commercial, not me. I love all of it. Even auditioning can be fun.

Don’t get me wrong, I’ll get nervous and second guess myself, but once I’m done, I feel great. It’s a hard thing to stand in front of people and give it your all, but it’s also courageous and wonderful.

Once I got paid to play the dual role of Lavatory Lady/Commissioner Cleanser. Who gets paid good money to dress up like a superhero? Me…sometimes.

Years ago, a talent agent told me she does not ask actors why they act because it would be like asking a drug addict why they do drugs. It’s true, you just can’t help yourself.

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