Friday’s Freewrite

Fragmented Fridays

by UnknownMami on October 29, 2009

My daughter is throwing a fit and I’m letting her. I can hear her screaming her head off while I sit in the living room, blog, and eat some Halloween candy. I’ll be back to her in a minute, but sometimes I just need a break. Wouldn’t it be great if parents we were required to take a lunch and 2 fifteen minute breaks? I can dream, can’t I?

Alright, my break is over, I’m off to deal with Screamy McScreamerton, otherwise known as Miss Don’t Want To Go To Sleep Even Though I Am Obviously Exhausted. Damn these 15 minute breaks go by quickly!

And, I’m back! She’s asleep. We’ll see how long that lasts.

Am I the only person that does not like horror movies? I HATE them. They make my butt hole hurt. I can enjoy a good Thriller, but straight up horror is not my thing.

Do you self-sabotage? You know like when something really great is about to happen to you and all you have to do is show up, do you find yourself flaking out or getting sick? If you do, might I recommend you STOP IT!

Wanna see what’s been making me smile all week?

That’s my little Chickadee and I love her! Sometimes I wish I could get mandatory lunch and 15 minute breaks, but I know I’m blessed. Seeing my child in this silly outfit brings me a sense of pure joy. It is impossible for me not to smile.

I wish you all a safe and Happy Halloween if that’s your thing and if it’s not I wish you a wonderful weekend!

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Fragmented Fridays

by UnknownMami on October 15, 2009

I actually read an entire book! I used to read, but I’m ashamed to say that since Put Pie’s birth I haven’t done much reading. I read “The Brief and Wonderous Life of Oscar Wao” and I liked it very much. Unfortunately, I had gone to see a play based on the book and I couldn’t get the actors who played the parts out of my head. My imagination was really struggling to recast all the characters.

My friend M from M and the two Henrys made me a beautiful wrap style baby carrier. Why? Because she’s crafty like that. I love it! It’s gorgeous, well made, and very comfortable. I wish I would have had it when Put Pie was teeny tiny. If I ever have another baby I will definitely be using it right away. I was going to take pictures of myself with it on, but the paper bag over my head really detracts from the artistry so instead I will share pictures of M and her little Henry modeling one of M’s creations. She intends on making them to sell on Etsy.

My cousin came to visit. When did we get old? Crazy! I haven’t really spent very much time with him as an adult and I can’t help, but think of him as a child. A child in the body of a man in his late 30’s with a bad knee.

My family is huge. HUGE! I have so many relatives I don’t know them all and sometimes I can’t remember the names of the ones I do know or how I’m related to them. Large families can come with lots of baggage. I’ve spent much of my life away from my family by choice, not because I don’t love them (I adore them), but because they can be all encompassing. There are so many of us that sometimes it’s hard to remember that there is a whole world out there. Well, I like being a part of the world.

Being with my cousin reminded me that no matter how much time passes or how far away I live, my family loves me. He looked at me with the same eyes he had as a little boy and he threw his arms around me and told me how much he loves me. And I could feel the love and it felt GOOD.

Exercise Challenge Update

Last week, I challenged myself to work out every day from October 8th until October 30th for at least 20 minutes a day. If I miss a day I have to pay $5 into a fund that will be used to finance a micro-loan through Kiva. Well, I am proud to report that thus far I have worked out EVERY.SINGLE.DAY! BOO-YA! Woo hoo! That’s right, that’s right, I did it! Alright, I shouldn’t gloat; it’s only been a week.

I have to thank you because there were a couple of times that I really wanted to weasel out of working out, but I couldn’t stand the thought of having to tell you. I thought you might ground me. So thank you, my bloggy buddies.

Have a fantastic weekend!

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Fragmented Fridays

by UnknownMami on October 8, 2009

Usually, I am extremely resistant to change, but for some reason I am really open to it right now.

I watch the ripples change their size
But never leave the stream
Of warm impermanence
So the days float through my eyes
But still the days seem the same
And these children that you spit on
As they try to change their worlds
Are immune to your consultations
They’re quite aware of what they’re going through

-David Bowie, Changes

I went ahead and bought http://www.unknownmami.com/ so that I could get rid of the blogspot in my url. I know! It’s like I expect to be doing this blogging thing for awhile.

Then I went and got myself a new email unknownmami@gmail.com. I had resisted it for the longest time because my regular email is on yahoo and I don’t want to change and who needs to check so many emails, but guess what? I can have all the emails forwarded to yahoo and I can even reply with the gmail address from yahoo. Who knew?

I went to the “temp” job I’ve been going to where I’m allowed to bring Put Pie and I was told that I might be able to work there for a whole year. Apparently, there is a program funded by the City of San Francisco specifically geared to mom’s returning to work. My job can’t afford to hire me for a year, but if I qualify for the program the city will pay for it! Wish me luck. (Proof again that the Universe is abundant. I never fail to be amazed at the things that find me.)

Okay, I am giving myself a challenge. From now until October 30th I am going to exercise EVERY.SINGLE.DAY! Yup that’s right. Now don’t get all worried. I’m talking about 20 minutes a day. Not much, but more than I currently manage. How am I making myself accountable, you ask? Good question! Well, I’m using you for one, I’ll keep you posted every Friday. Big deal, you say. Oh ye of little faith, there is more. For everyday that I do not exercise, I will be charging myself five dollars and at the end of my challenge if I have paid for not exercising I will use the money to finance a micro-loan to an entrepreneur through Kiva. (If you haven’t heard of Kiva, please check them out. You can do a lot of good with as little as $25 and it’s not a donation, it’s a loan so you can loan it to someone else when it gets paid back.)

I came to a realization this week that I spend far too much time in front of the computer. My beautiful daughter has taken to screeching when she sees me go for the laptop. I am ashamed and I realize that I need to limit myself. I have decided that her time is her time and I shouldn’t continually try to sneak “my time” into her time. I enjoy my online life and do not want to stop, but I will either have to get up early or wait until she has gone to sleep. I really do feel bad that she has had to find a way to tell me without words how much she hates it when Mami’s face is pointed at the computer. Today, I really made an effort (it’s hard, it’s an addiction) and it really paid off. It was even easier to put her to bed. She is the most beautiful thing in my life and deserves the best of me; I intend on giving it to her.

Have a beautiful weekend!

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Fragmented Fridays

by UnknownMami on October 1, 2009

If, if, if…if my aunt had balls she’d be my uncle. And she’d be welcome to live with me in San Francisco.

Yesterday, on my way to meet a friend, I got a call informing me that my credit card had been used fraudulently. Fortunately, it was caught early and damage to myself and my credit is minimal. A red flag went up when someone tried to purchase $48 worth of food at McDonald’s. My C.C. company thought that was an irregular purchase for me. How sweet is it they knew I would never buy so much fast food.? It’s just not my style. They know me better than my extended family.

Actually it was pretty freaky how much the credit card people knew about me. I didn’t have the card on me when I called so they had to find another way of verifying my identity. Holy cow! They knew things about me I didn’t remember. I said, “Geeze, how long have I had this card?” and the woman told me that although I hadn’t had the card long the information was from public records. Scary.

I won a giveaway!!! I don’t enter very many giveaways because my life is full of stuff and I just don’t need more, but Sarah at Life {Sweet} Life was giving away some pretty cool stuff. What I really wanted to win are these great name blocks that she makes. I had been coveting them for awhile and had even mentioned to my husband (prior to the giveaway) that I wanted some for Put Pie’s room. I acted like I might even make them myself, but who was I kidding, I would never have gotten around to it. Now I don’t have too!

I’ve been feeling jealous. Not in my marriage, but because of other people’s good fortune. I do not like feeling jealous of others because I know that their success in no way shape or form takes anything from me. I know that the Universe is abundant and that there is plenty to go around. So why do I still feel jealous even while I am happy for them? I am jealous because I know that I need to get my butt in gear and go after what I want too. This is just a wake up call.

Our 2 year wedding anniversary is this coming week. We have been together for over 8 years. When we first “got together” we spent an inordinate amount of time together and every once in a while we’d look at each other and ask, “Are you sick of me yet?” We have yet to get sick of each other and I hope we never do. For those of you who do not know my husband, he is pretty awesome. He is:

sexy as all hell
great in bed
interesting
interested
a great father
stubborn
grouchy
forgetful
someone I truly admire
here to teach me something
not as funny as I am
my biggest supporter
a blanket hog
someone you would be lucky to know

As you can probably tell, I’ve been using the new post editor in Blogger. Does anyone know what happened to the spell check?

Have a great weekend!

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